Imagining Insanity

A Day in the Imagination of the Duchess

Tuesday, August 17, 2004

Therapy or Torture?

Duo still was deciding. On Sally's recommendation now that Duo's healing had seemed to have stopped just short of where they wanted him to be, he'd started going to physical therapy.

Jess had done it a few times. She had told him what to expect and what she had been doing for her knees, and Duo wasn't happy about things as he walked into the office.

First came the evaluation. Pushing, poking, proding... all testing the limits the injury had left on his ankle. Comparing it to his other leg, not only could they see a difference in their professional capacities, but he was feeling one.

And it wasn't pleasant.

They started him on some simple exercises. They wanted to build the strength back up in his leg, as well as the flexibility. Testing his balance and making sure the joint stayed limber were pretty important. By the time they were done, he felt like his leg was screaming for him to stop.

"You handled that really well..." the therapist mentioned as he put ice on it. He had Duo lay back and rest his leg on some giant padded wedge thing to elevate it.

"Thanks...?" Duo didn't sound so sure.

"No, I'm serious... But... you do have to tell me when something hurts. Believe me, that's harder for guys than girls, I know. But don't be afraid to tell me to stop something." Duo bit his lip for a moment.

"Can I just stop the whole thing and not come back?" he said. The therapist smiled and Duo sighed, giving him a small smile back. "Just kidding..." Though, part of him really was serious about that.

"Don't worry... everyone goes through a tough time of it in the beginning," he said. "But the things we did today will get easier. Then, we move you on to the next level until you're back to almost 100%."

"So much for it just getting easier, huh?" The therapist chuckled this time and place the timer on the table next to where Duo was laying.

"When that beeps, take the ice off and you're done for tonight."

"Thanks..." Duo sighed. 'I think...'

Tuesday, August 03, 2004

Breaking Up Is Hard to Do

"I should kick that guy's ass..."

"I'd like to see you try without getting hurt."

Duo glared at Minako for a second and then sighed. She had a point. His balance was still off thanks to the stupid ankle injury... He clenched his fists.

"It's been how long, though?" he asked. "And he never called her back after that day."

"I don't know," Mina said, shaking her head. "But it does really stink. You can see it's starting to bother her when people ask her about him."

"Idiot..."

Mina smiled. Duo was so protective of everyone, yet he still managed to deceptively keep them all at arm's distance. It was strange... she felt so close to him sometimes, and... others, he was like miles away.

Jess sometimes called him wide shut, after the weird movie with Tom Cruise and Nicole Kidman... not that she related him to the movie itself... but more like his attitude. He kept himself so hidden behind a facade that made him seem so open.

And now, he was showing another classic trait with Jess's little bout of confused depression. She'd been happy with that guy... and he had seemed happy with her... and they even got along with his daughter around, yet... he just stopped calling.

Minako sighed.

People were so strange sometimes.

Tuesday, June 22, 2004

Mall Adventures, Part II

After settling down, the group was talkative right away. Looking over the menu, Jess tapped a fork on her water glass.

"Okay... because things have been crazy around here for me... I think we owe some people a birthday." She grinned, looking at Sage, Mia, and Duo.

"That's alright..." Sage said quietly, looking mildly embarassed. Mia giggled.

"We go through this every year, Sage," she said. "We're having a birthday for you." Duo laughed.

"So... what do you guys say to having some cake?" Jess asked. Minako cheered.

"I'm all for it!" she said happily. "We should have them sing, too!"

"Oh no!" Makoto shook her head. "I hate that song." Sage turned bright red under his hair as Rowen laughed at his friend.

"Come on, Sage..." The blond shook his head.

"I'd rather not," he said quietly. The discussion continued as the waitress took their drink orders, and Jess managed to sneak in a cake order for the three birthdays and for it to come after they ate their regular meals.

Feeling mostly like snacking, the group ordered several appetisers on combination plates and other things just to share across the whole table for the time being. The meal was noisy and pleasant. Followed by a noisy birthday song from the entire Friday's waitstaff that sent the blood rushing to Sage's cheeks, they all headed back home very full.

Mall Adventures, Part I

The mall was crowded. It was odd for a weekday, but... for late June, it was normal. Jess was between sessions, as well as off from work, and they were bored... so the group had gone to the mall. After a while, they had split up to go to whatever stores they wanted, deciding that they'd all get back together later at Friday's for dinner.

Mia had stuck with Duo, since he was slower at the moment anyway. He'd made quite a bit of improvement over the past week or so... but Mia was watching how he was walking.

"How are you holding up?" she asked him.

"I'm alright."

"We can take a break you know." He nodded.

"I know."

"Well... don't push yourself, okay? Your limp's been getting worse." Duo sighed. "Hm?" He stopped.

"Alright," he said. Mia gave him a small smile and took his arm. She guided him over to one of the benches. She spotted the pretzel cart.

"Wanna pretzel?" she asked him, digging into her wallet for some cash.

"Okay..."

"I'll be right back." Duo sat down, stretching his leg out in front of him. He couldn't really move his foot around all that much with the aircast on it, but he could enough to stretch it a bit. Not that he had his full range of motion anyway right now. Mia came back and handed him a pretzel and a soda.

He took it from her carefully so she didn't drop her own. Turning the pretzel over, he looked at it funny.

"What is this?" he asked her.

"Cinnamon." Mia grinned as she sat down. "They had samples and I liked it."

"So.. you got two..."

"Yup." She looked at him. "What? Just try it."

"Cinnamon..." He quirked an eyebrow, but braved a bite of the pretzel.

"So?" He tilted his head back and forth a bit and then nodded.

"Not bad..." he said. Mia grinned again. He stuck his tongue out at her.

"We should probably start heading back towards Friday's when you're ready," she said. She tilted her arm so he could see her watch. He looked over and nodded.

"Alright," he said. "I don't wanna sit too long anyway... My leg'll get stiff." Mia nodded. "I'm probably gonna feel this later anyway." He smiled a bit. Mia leaned on his shoulder affectionately.

After they had finished the pretzels, they started their trip to Fridays. Mia let Duo set the pace. Surprisingly, they got there early. So, they got a table and Mia went to wait for everyone at the door.

Friday, June 11, 2004

Just a Day, Just an Ordinary Day

"How's your leg?"

"Sore..."

Mia glanced up from her magazine. Duo looked uncomfortable. The switch from two crutches to one hadn't gone exactly well, and, while he was putting weight on the injured leg, he'd been mostly going back and forth between using both crutches and just one.

"You want ice?" she asked him. He sighed and shook his head.

"I'll live." Mia frowned a bit and went back to her magazine.

"Well, let me know, okay?"

"Yeah..." He yawned as the front door opened. Jess came in after a shift doing work study at the Student Services office and dropped her things, shoving the one bag under the table with her foot.

"I'm so glad I found that bag in Kansas City," she said. "I'm down to one instead of lugging around my laptop case and my bookbag. It's probably the one good thing I got out of that trip." She flopped down on the couch. Duo winced as she bumped his leg by accident. "Sorry..."

"Don't worry about it," he mumbled. "It's not like it wasn't bugging me already..."

"Bad day?" Duo just frowned. "Ooookay..." Jess yawned, leaving it at that. Duo'd been moody ever since he fell, and she couldn't really blame him. He'd been having a tough time of it, and she knew he hated not being able to do what he wanted.

"Busy day again?" Mia asked.

"Not as bad as last week," Jess said. "Now that classes have been running for a while, we're calm until the session change."

"That's good."

"Where is everyone?"

"Here and there," Mia said. "Sage went for a run... Quatre, Mina, and Rowen went to catch a movie... Mako went shopping... Haruto, Yuriko, and Annie are... well, I don't remember where they went." She shrugged.

"So, it's just been the two of you all day?"

"Not all day... everyone's been rotating out..."

"Oh."

"And your mom called... said she'd be a little late 'cuz she was stopping at the store on the way home."

"I was wondering why she wasn't in, yet." Jess smiled a bit.

"I'm gonna take a nap," Duo said in a somewhat grumpy tone. Jess offered him a hand up, but he ignored it, hobbling off with his crutches.

Friday, May 28, 2004

That Wasn't So Bad... Was It?

They'd had time to rest, now. Thankfully... Duo was especially happy he hadn't had to go back to Sally just yet. Mia was, too. She didn't want to hear him keep whining. However, he had to go this morning.

Jess had gone into school for a SIFE meeting and to catch up with Barbara on what she had missed while she was gone, so Mina took him in. He wasn't allowed to drive, yet, not that he would have wanted to.

"I take it you guys are glad to be back," she said. She had talked to some of the others, but hadn't heard it from him, yet. Duo nodded.

"You could say that," he said, giving her a small smile. "It was a rough few days. I kinda wish I had been able to do more." Mina smiled.

"I'm sure everyone understood," she said.

"It's not really that, Mina... I just..." He shrugged. "I hate not being able to do anything." She chuckled.

"I know the feeling," she said. "If it makes you feel better, once you're ready, I'll even go the court with you." Duo chuckled as well.

"Yeah... and I know you hate basketball."

"I always was more of a volleyball girl." She shrugged, giving him a quick grin.

"Mr Maxwell?"

"That's you." He nodded and got up, a lot steadier now than he had been. Mina picked up her book as he followed the nurse into one of the exam rooms.

She helped him up onto the table and then placed his chart in the little bin outside the door. Duo propped his crutches up in front of him, folding his arms and leaning his chin on top of them as he stared off at nothing. After a few moments, he closed his eyes.

"Tired?" He looked up as Sally came in.

"I guess," he said as she closed the door behind her.

"Alright... let's take a look at you. Lay back." She took his crutches from him as he laid back on the table. He was thankfully no where near as stiff as the last time. Having a few days to rest up after the trip had helped, too, that was for sure. Sally noticed the difference right away.

"Well, you're improving pretty quick," she said, sounding pleased.

"Yeah... I guess so," he said.

"Those bruises will be there for a few weeks, yet," she continued, "but I'm hoping to get you off the crutches by next week. I want you to start trying to move around with just one."

"One?" He sat up and looked at her. She nodded.

"Opposite side, since that's how arms move for walking anyway," Sally explained. "If you're comfortable with it. If it's too much, don't do it. But... don't overdo it." Duo frowned. "I know you too well. Take it easy, and listen to what your body's telling you. If it hurts too much, or if you feel unsteady, go back to two. Only put as much weight on it as you can handle." He nodded. "In the meantime, I'm going to put you in an aircast for support. I don't want you walking on it without it, alright?" He nodded again.

"Alright."

"I see the swelling's gone down nicely," she continued. "You've been icing it like I told you?" He nodded. "It'll probably get swollen again as you put pressure on it... that's normal. Just keep putting the ice on it. If it gets really bad, then back off." She made a few notes on his chart.

"What's really bad?" he asked.

"If it gets as big as it had been when you first hurt it," she said. She smiled at him. "Don't look so nervous. You'll be fine soon enough." He gave her a sheepish smile. Sally chuckled. "It's going to take some time," she told him. "And it'll probably seem like a really long time for you... but you will get better. I promise." Duo nodded.

"Okay..."

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

Homeward Bound

"I can't believe it," Jess said. She was standing at the check-in counter, watching Marta repack her bags. One bag had come in over the limit for 'free shipping', so to speak. She was going to have to pay extra per pound. So, since the other was several pounds under, Jess was now watching her friend repack her bags so they evened out under the weight limit. "I told you there was too much," she said, feeling strange as Marta moved her clothing around.

"I'll get it..." she said, insisting. Once that was settled, the girl informed them that there was a two hour storm delay.

"Again?" Jess asked. "We have no luck with weather on this trip. We had a three hour delay on the way here." She sighed. "Are we at least going to make the connecting flight in Cleveland?" The last thing they needed was to have to redo their whole flight schedule again.

"Yes, that's already been taken care of," the girl said.

So, after going through an extremely thorough security checkpoint ("You want to put that wand where?"), they sat in the small waiting area past the gate for an hour and half as they waited for the plane to arrive.

"I should call my mom... I'm not sure what kind of ride arrangements my parents figured out for today," Jess said, pulling out her cellphone and calling. Not sure of new arrival times with the delay, Jess told her mom she'd call again once they were in Cleveland.

Back on the small planes, Duo had been stuck with the whole gate check thing again because of his crutches.

"I'm never flying again," he growled. "At least... not until there's some decent sized planes out there." Mia just laughed at him. The group rushed across the terminal in Cleveland just in time to find out they had another hour to wait.

"No wonder they said things were taken care of," Jess said. "Our next flight is delayed, too... she could have told us that." She flipped open her cellphone and called her mom again... but she'd already left work. Slight panicked, Jess called her dad after getting her mother's voicemail on her cell. "She already left work," she said. "I can't reach her."

"Alright... I'll let her know," her dad said. "Stay calm. It'll be fine." Jess nodded.

"Okay."

"We'll get it worked out, kid," he said. "I'll see you when you get home."

Jess's phone chimed after she hung up.

"Who's that?" Quatre asked.

"Voicemail... Strange... I didn't hear it beep while I was on..." Jess listened to the message, which she had received while on the plane to Cleveland. Michelle wasn't feeling well and was asking if she could get her the work for class that night. Jess laughed and called Michelle back, getting her friend's answering machine. "Sorry, Michelle, but I'm stuck in Cleveland at the moment trying to get home from the SIFE competition... we're not due to leave here until a quarter after 5. I doubt they'll get me back to Patchogue by 6, so I'm going to need someone to get the work from, too." She chuckled. "If you can get in touch with Theresa... ask her and then pass word to me if at all possible, okay? Thanks. Talk to you soon." She hung up and then took the gate check ticket from the attendant who was circling through the crowd. She attached it her to bag as she listened to Duo start complaining to the attendant about how they needed to get some bigger damn planes. He yelped slightly as Mia smacked his shoulder hard to shut him up.

Jess yawned as they boarded the plane for their fifth flight in as many days.

"I'm going to take a big nap when I get home," Marta said.

"I'm with you on that one," Jess said. She watched out the window as they disappeared into heavy cloud cover. Long Island was under dense fog. Next to her, Marta had closed her eyes as they felt like it was getting faster and faster in the landing. Jess watched, a solid grey out her window until suddenly they were only about a mile above the ground. Jess gasped.

"Don't do that," Marta said, but she looked nonetheless.

Once down, they came into the building and headed for baggage claim. Jess hugged her dad, glad to be home.

"Oh, here," Marta said, opening her bag. She handed Jess a box of spaghetti. "I had got this for you at job fair." Jess laughed.

"You really didn't have to," she said. Her dad gave her a weird look as Jess laughed and took the box anyway.

"I have so much to tell you," she said with a laugh. "But I think I'm going to take a long nap in my own bed first..." He laughed with her as they headed out, box of low-carb spaghetti in hand.

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

The Final Four

Everyone had met up at the finals. Jess kept going back and forth to get the free ice cream Healthy Choice had out for the students.

"It's my dinner," she said when someone asked.

Naturally, the final four schools were phenomenal. The automated presentations that were perfectly timed with the speaking members of the teams were filled with multimedia videos, music, and soundbites from the various projects. The teams didn't cover every project in their presentations, nor did they have them all in their annual reports. They had chosen to highlight the particularly successful projects that had been completed that year, and listed the bare stats for other projects on the last page of their reports.

Jess found herself completely impressed.

"We are so outclassed," Walter said quietly. The rest of the team couldn't help but agree.

"How can we possibly expect to compete with these people?" Janine said. "They've got teams of over 200 people. We only have 15."

"We're also only a second year team that made it to Nationals," Jess said. "Think of the bright side here. Some of these first time teams have been trying for seven or more years to make as far as we did in two." The group thought about that for a moment.

"We can do this again," Joe said. "You'll see. We'll be back next year... and we'll be better."

"Go SIFE!" Jill said. The group cracked up.

They waited to hear the winners, Flagler in the 4 year, and LSU at Eunice in the 2 year, and then gathered their things.

"Come on... let's go get a quick meal," Patrice said. "Some of us have an early plane to catch."

The Infamous Job Fair

Jess looked around as they came up the escalator for the fourth time that weekend.

"This is huge," she said, noticing all the companies there. "There's gotta be something here for me..."

"I hope so, too," Marta said. They started in, Marta stopping right away at one of the first tables. Jess wandered slowly, taking in the feeling of the place first. They weren't the only ones there, either. As they wandered, dropping off resumes (though Jess hadn't found a single direct IT position) and gathering small giveaways, they ran into Paul, Joe, and a few others. IT wasn't doing well, so it was going to take a bit more filtering to prevent herself from getting depressed over too many 'no, sorry's'. As it was, Jess didn't have much luck, and didn't get any offers for interviews either. She'd try again next year after she graduated to see what people thought. It was a long walk through the fair, too, and Marta was making sure she got everything the different companies were giving away.

"Dr Laube, there's free food!" she said.

"She's grabbed at least one of every item here," Jess said quietly to the professor as Marta headed off down the line. They sat at a table in the back of the fair. Jess's back had begun to bother her from being on her feet for what seemed like four days straight. She was glad she'd brought an extra pair of shoes.

"Here," Marta said, putting some stuff on the table. "I got this for you. It's free!"

"Thanks," Jess said with a laugh. "Of course, I have no room to bring it home with me. You're going to have to buy another suitcase at this rate, Marta." Dr Laube laughed.

"Professor Newman said same thing," she said, sitting down with them. "The finals are coming up," she then said.

"Do we have time to head back and change?" Jess asked.

"Not much, I wouldn't think," Dr Laube said. "When do they start?"

"I'm not really sure... I told the others about seven," Jess said.

"Hey, guys! It's starting!" They looked up. Joe Newman was waving them over.

"Guess that answers that," Dr Laube said. They gathered their things and headed over.

"My bag is so heavy..." Jess complained as she was dragged into the other side of the convention center.

Small Discussion

One of the biggest attractions at a SIFE competition is the job fair. Jess was thrilled with the idea hitting it and seeing what was available. After they got back from the Crown, Jess changed into her suit, grabbed a few resumes, and headed for the fair in the Convention Center.

"What time did she say they'd be back?" Mia asked.

"She wasn't sure," Duo said, flipping channels on the TV. "But the big competition is tonight."

"It's the finals, right?" Duo nodded.

"I think it's that last four," he said. Quatre looked up.

"They called it Final Four and Sweet Sixteen... though there were twenty in the semi-finals this year," he said. "I'm not sure what they called it though."

"Probably something to do with twenty," Duo said. Quatre blushed, but smiled.

"Probably," the blonde Arabian said.

"Are we going to head over for that?" Sage asked. "I'd kind of like to see it myself."

"I want to know who they lost out to," Rowen said with a small chuckle. "They had the semi-finals this morning, right?"

"Yeah," Mia said. "The two-year schools had their finals this morning, too. Their winner will be announced tonight with the four-year winner."

"What time is that at?"

"I think seven." Duo glanced at his watch. "We've got time if you want to take a shower," Mia said. Duo sighed.

"It's funny what you take for granted..." he mumbled, rubbing his leg.

Aftermath

Morning came. Jess had finally slept through the night. No one came banging through the hotel to wake people up, and that was somewhat reassuring to her. A small group got together to walk over to the Crown Center that morning, meeting up in the lobby downstairs.

The walk was longer than they thought, which illicited a few complaints from Marta and Kathie, but they made it well enough. Jess and Janine were amused that most everyone had worn their SIFE shirts and black pants while they had on 'normal' clothes.

"I didn't want to look that much like a tourist," Jess said. Janine laughed and nodded in agreement.

Traffic lights were out in town, which meant the power had been affected by the storm. It didn't seem to matter. There were a few cops on the busier corners, but even those corners weren't busy by the standards of a group of New Yorkers.

"I wonder what they would do if they ever saw New York City without traffic lights," Mia said with a small chuckle.

"They'd probably panic and run home," Jess said. They crested the hill and walked into Union Station. It was a large historical building that had once been a large train station. It had since been converted into a shopping center.

"Now this is what I was looking for yesterday," Marta said, finally happy. Joe pulled out his camera.

"Okay, everyone in front of the waterfall." He waved them all together. Jess whipped out her own camera and snapped a shot of him taking a picture. "Don't take a picture of me!" he said. Everyone laughed.

After checking a few stores, they crossed the walkway up to the main shopping area. Jess snapped a few pictures of the monument and the large fountain out front as they went. Inside, they found a ton of gift shop type places, including a cute little restaurant done up like a trolley. The name across the top was "Streetcar Named Desire". Jess took a picture of that, too.

They found all sorts of souvenir type things.

"This is better than Plaza," Marta said. Jess nodded.

"Yeah... we shouldn't have listened to that cabby..." she said. "I could have gotten that stuff at home."

"You did get that bag," Marta said.

"Yeah, but I need that for the trip back... I'm not dragging that suitcase around if we're going to be stuck on small planes again," Jess said with a laugh. "You had to go MacArthur."

"It was closer than JFK," Marta said.

"JFK's got bigger planes."

"We wouldn't have had to listen to Duo whine as much," Mia said. Quatre laughed.

"They might have had a direct, too," he added.

"Okay... next year we travel different," Marta said. Everyone chuckled.

"We also travel together next year," Patrice said.

"Within reason," Jess said. "Those times you got were nuts."

"The school wasn't going to pay for this to be a vacation," Joe reminded them.

"Not a vacation... just enough time for peace of mind," Jess said. "You saw how cranky everyone was when you finally got here... The four of us that arrived the day before were rested and ready to practice. Everyone else wanted a nap. It'll be easier the day before, not for vacation purposes, but just for the sake of sanity."

Once they had hit a few shops, they began the journey back to the hotel. Kathie suggested finding another way than walking, but there were too many of them for a cab. There was a bus stop right outside the Crown Center.

"We want that one?" Marta asked.

"Here... 56... Country Club goes right past the hotel... two blocks over," Jess said. "It's the one we took back from the Plaza the other day."

"No... we took 54," Marta said. Jess shook her head.

"No... look at the sign. 112th St."

"But... we took 54." Jess clenched her jaw.

'Why does no one listen to me?' she asked herself. 'Do I really look that stupid?'

"We could just ask the driver of the next bus that comes by," Janine said. And that's what they did... and Jess was right. She sighed as they took a seat, staring out the window as Marta rattled off how she was certain it had been 54 on Sunday.

'I can't wait to go home,' Jess thought.